Heart Beats - Pt 2

WARNING: Contains sex, homosexuality, strong language. Do not read if you're not of the legal age in your country or if any of the mentioned doesn't fit you. Oh, and do take note of the fact that English isn't my first language. Some of the names in this story are somewhat altered from the original story to fit the English better. Not the main character's though. Any resemblance to actual people or places are purely coincidental.

First Meeting

A couple of days later Johnas got tired of staring at the four walls in his new room and decided to take a walk to explore the backwoods. Majvor and Beth had taken the car to go shopping and even though the thought of having to spend several hours in a mall with two hags had made him feel sick to his stomach he almost wished he'd swallow his nauseousness and gone with them. He'd never been a particular nature lover but anything was better than sitting at home and gawk. In other words, he put his cigarettes in his pocket and set out. He walked along the winding dirt-road for about 15 minutes before some completely insane idea assailed him and he swerved off into a forest path. Completely insane due to the fact that he a while later was utterly and irreversibly lost.

By then he bitterly regretted going off on this fortuitous stroll. His toes had started aching again and all he wanted was to sit down and never again take a single step. Unfortunately he was in the middle of nowhere and couldn't expect to be rescued. He sighed. He didn't have much other choice than to struggle on and hope that he sooner or later would reach some kind of civilization. A house or something where he could ask for directions. At the moment however it looked pretty grave. All he could see was trees and more trees. He had turned around in an attempt to try and walk back in his own tracks but already at the first split of the path he'd realized that he hadn't a clue about where he'd come from. That was what happened when you had a worthless sense of directions and on top of that was completely absent in mind.

He pulled out a cigarette and lit it. For a moment he considered sitting down to smoke it, if not for anything else so to rest his toes, but quickly came to the conclusion that if he sat down he'd probably not want to get up again. So he stubbornly kept going. He had a strong growing feeling that he just got further and further into the wilderness. But he definitely wouldn't turn around again. There was a limit for how long you were able to walk back and forth. If he continued along the path it oughta end somewhere. Hopefully at a bigger road or something whereat he should bump into life sooner or later. The country wasn't that cursedly big. Then again... one always heard about people that disappeared without a trace. They had probably encountered the fate he increasingly clearer saw for himself. Well, if he wasn't back by Sunday Beth would hopefully notify the authorities or something. If nothing else so due to the fact that he started his new school on Monday. But today was Friday and two nights and days out in the woods, even if it was summer and hot at nights, wasn't anything that topped his list on things he wanted to experience. He shuddered. As mentioned, he wasn't a nature lover but in spite of that he would probably have appreciated the beauty in the nature surrounding him in other circs. Firs and pines were growing close together and threw shades over a dull green rug of moss. He could hear birds chirping and rustling that he, after the first chock eased, interpreted as squirrels running up and down tree trunks. He couldn't claim he was scared. He was pretty sure that all the bigger predators in the country were farther north. Pretty sure... If he heard anything that sounded bigger than a kitten he'd probably run for his life, aching toes or not.

Precisely then he thought that he imagined himself hearing a sound that definitely couldn't be whitewashed with squirrels and birds and came to a dead stop. With rampageous pulse he stood still and persistently listened for several seconds. He didn't hear anything else and after convincing himself that he must have heard wrong he started to move again. Merely to be standing as paralyzed in the middle of the path when a cyclist came flying in break necking speed around a sharp bend about two meters ahead. A big rock had effectively hidden the approaching danger. He had time to see a shocked face the moment before throwing himself sidewards. Simultaneously the biker veered, luckily the other way, and crashed straight into the terrain.

For a while there were only alarming silence. Then he heard something that by all appearances sounded like curses on Finnish. Carefully he got up in a seated position and aimed his eyes towards the other side of the path, towards the sound of the Finnish screeds. The first thing he saw was the bikers back while he struggled his way out from a shrubbery. Despite the pretty long, dark red hair that stood out beneath the bicycle helmet there were no doubts that it was a guy. If the voice hadn't already exposed him the body shape would have done it. He seemed pretty small but was fit. One couldn't avoid seeing it on account of the tight black linen and the even tighter bike shorts.

The guy turned around and their eyes met. He had the greenest eyes Johnas' ever seen and the intensity in them almost made him breathless. His stomach tied itself in a odd way and he convulsively swallowed. The guys incomparable eyes widened a bit and slid over him before returning to his face. He was a tad red over the high cheekbones but if it was due to breathlessness after his little joyride with its sudden stop or just embarrassment for almost mowing down Johnas was harder to tell.

"Um... You ok?" he lastly asked.

Johnas twitched. Given the fact he'd just hear him swear so convincing on Finnish his voice was surprising free from dialect. Johnas got up on his feet and brushed some coniferous from his chest. He nodded.

"Yeh," he shortly said. "You?"

The guy nodded too.

"Worse with the bike," he said while critically eying the half that stuck out from the shrub.

Johnas limped closer. At that time he saw that the front-wheel almost had folded up and considering it was a mountain bike it had to have took considerable force. He was pretty surprised the guy had fared so good. He frowned while wondering if it would be rude or something to initiate an eye search on the guy after hidden injuries.

"You did get hurt", the guy said.

Johnas leered at him, wondered what he was talking about, and discovered that he looked down at Johnas' feet.

"Old", he got out.

The guy scratched his neck.

"Oh", he said. "Uhm.. sorry anyway... Usually there's never anyone here. If I'd known I would've taken it a bit slower."

Of course. Johnas just nodded. He put his hands in his pockets and felt relieved when the guy took his eyes off of him. The guy quietly watched his bike for a while before limping over to it and starting to pull at the rear wheel to get it out from the shrub. Johnas surprised himself by rushing over to help. They guy gave him a quick glance.

"Ah", he said when he saw Johnas expression. "It's also old. Twisted my ankle when falling down the stairs the other day."

He shot off a wide, charismatic smile that was so blinding that Johnas had to blink a couple of times.

They quickly got the bike out of the shrub with common forces and the guy pulled of his helmet, hung it on the bike's handlebar and pulled a hand through his sweaty hair. He watched Johnas so thoroughly that he of some reason almost started blushing. Usually he just got pissed off if people watched him too long.

"You're Johnas."

Johnas felt even more tongue-tied than usual. They guy grinned again.

"I'm a psychic", he said conspiratorially.

Johnas just rose an eyebrow to show his skepticism.

"Plus Majvor's been talking about you nonstop the last month", the guy added.

Johnas moaned inside. He didn't even want to imagine what stories his grandma had fed this guy. At the same time he was worrying over that, he wondered how the heck this guy knew who his grandma was. He seemed to catch his quandary.

"We're neighbors", he explained. "Matti."

He stretched out his hand and after a moment's hesitation Johnas gave him his own. The guy's hand was warm and surprisingly smooth. Johnas felt a tad bothered after the quick handshake. He couldn't remember if he'd ever shook someones hand before. He tried to not look too much at Matti. The guy from the luxurious house across the road. Majvor actually had mentioned him as late as the other day. Apparently they were as old as each other and Matti was the eldest son in a family with ten kids!

"What are you doing out here by the way?" Matti continued after the greeting. "It's quite a bit from home."

"Uhm", Johnas answered.

What should he say...? He used to answer most questions with stubborn silence but of some reason he felt like answering Matti's. Maybe 'cause of something with his outwardly aura. Although Johnas seemed to have forgotten how to answer people 'cause he didn't get a single word out.

"Ah well", Matti said when it became clear he wouldn't get more than "uhm" as an answer. "I don't feel like sitting inside either when the weather's this nice. Did you get lost? It's quite easy here if you don't know the grounds. Everything looks the same."

At least said. Johnas quietly nodded.

"So how about me calling for a ride?" Matti continued. "It's over a mile back home and I for one sure don't feel like limping all the way there."

Han fired of yet another of those wide smiles. Johnas frowned. He couldn't imagine there being any road big enough for a car in the vicinity. He opened his mouth but before he got to think of anything to say Matti moved his eyes away from him. He opened and closed his mouth in a funny way a couple of times and Johnas totally lost himself.

"Fire."

Johnas stared at him.

"Huh?"

The comment was so far from anything conceivable that he actually managed to get something out due to pure surprise.

"Fire!"

Matti tossed aside his bike and quickly limped past Johnas. Johnas turned around in the same movement and could shocked establish that a part of dry grass on the side of the path actually were on fire. He rushed after Matti and together they stomped around for a while and suffocated the flames. When it finally were extinguished they both were a bit out of breath, most likely more due to excitement than anything else, and their eyes met. Strangely enough Matti busted out in laughter.

"Shit. I think I had it with surprises for today."

Johnas nodded his silent support.

"But kinda strange it just started burning like that", Matti added and thoughtfully looked down at the charred remains of the grass.

This time it was dangerously close that Johnas blushed.

"Uhm... I think... My smoke..."

He had dropped his cigarette in pure fright when he threw himself out of the way towards Matti's wild rampage earlier. He'd totally forgotten about it until it started to burn. Then he'd immediately realized that he himself was the reason for the initiated wildfire.

"Sorry..." he pushed out.

Matti grinned.

"No harm. It's out now. Would've been worse if it started when we'd left!"

Johnas had to agree about that even if it didn't make it feel that much better. Just the thought of what he could have caused made a chill go along his spine. Fact was that he also just now realized he actually been stomping around amongst flames... Suddenly he felt all shivery in his legs and he wondered how Matti would react if he would faint right now.

They guy in question just hauled up a slim cell phone from a practically placed pocket on his thigh.

"I'll call and ask mum to pick us up", he said as explanation.

Johnas couldn't do anything else than nod. Even if he still was unsure how a car was supposed to get there he was willing to accept the impossible. He didn't think he'd be capable of walking any further after everything.

With half a ear he listened in on Matti's conversation with his mother while he empty stared down at the charred grass.

"Yo, it's me... Mm... something happened... no, nothing serious, but our feet hurts.... Hm, mine and Johnas'... That's right... don't know... yeah, that would be great... About half a mile after the Janssons... Mhm... Nice... We'll be waiting..."

With this he hung up and smiled at Johnas.

"She's on her way", he said and went back to his bike. "Come on."

Johnas quietly followed him when he took the lead on the path. Even though Matti limped and as good as carried his bike he kept good momentum at the same time that he talked non-stop. Johnas couldn't help but feel a bit overpowered by the shorter guy's energy but at the same time it was a relief. He'd always had a tough time with meeting new people, even before everything that had happened, and rarely knew what to say. Thanks to Matti's gabble there weren't any of those embarrassing silences that so often were the case. Not least 'cause Johnas were so quiet himself. It used to intimidate most folk. Johnas couldn't tell if Matti just pretended not to notice his lack of answers or just really didn't perceive it but either way he didn't allow himself to be discouraged.

Johnas had the time to find out all of Matti's ten siblings names and ages, something he forgot as soon as he heard the next one on the list, that the dad was Finnish, which explained the surname and Matti's earlier curses, as well as that the dad worked at some big company in the city, and that the mum, that were on her way to pick them up, were a housewife.

"Although she use to say that she's holding at least five jobs 24-7. Nanny, maid, gardener, chef and nurse", Matti ended the screed at the same time as the forest cracked up in front of them and revealed a narrow, winding dirt-road, similar the one that passed their own houses.

Matti unceremoniously dropped his bike in the ditch and straightened himself with a moan.

"She's a qualified nurse", he added and turned his green eyed gaze towards Johnas, "so she can always take a look at your foot if you want to. Although I don't recommend it. She'd be a better blacksmith than nurse with her dukes."

Of some reason Johnas almost felt out of breath. Maybe the walk had affected him more than he wanted to admit even to himself. For lack of better stuff to do he pulled out his cigarettes and lit one. He had more of a feeling than actually saw Matti's oblique glance and frowned a bit.

"I'll... put it out properly..." he pushed out.

Matti smiled.

"I believe you. I wasn't thinking about that. I... I'm sorry that I jabber so much. Mum use to say that I grind on worse than a mill and can make even a professional listener's ear bleed at the matter of seconds..."

It was inexplicable... Johnas couldn't remember the last time, and Matti had already said things that could be viewed as considerably more funny, nevertheless, of some reason, that last comment from Matti made a surprising laughter well up from somewhere below. Instinctively he tried to push it back which ended with the smoke getting distorted in his throat and obtaining him an attack of coughing instead. Matti unashamedly and not very helpful patted him in the back a couple of times. Since Johnas was leaning forward and had tears in his eyes he couldn't se how Matti had reacted and by those means determine if he'd heard that he was about to laugh. He felt stupid and embarrassed. By the coughing but even more so the laughter...

~~~~~~~~~~O~~~~~~~~~~

Matti convulsively swallowed while he pulled his hand away from Johnas' back when he seemed to start recovering. Even though it was pretty obvious that it was the last thing Johnas wanted Matti hadn't missed the short laughter that had been interrupted by the coughing. He was used to people loosening up pretty fast in his company. It was a part of his charisma as Anette used to say. Johnas hadn't in any way been unpleasant but there were no doubts that he was significantly withdrawn and distanced.

He hadn't said much during the whole time and not as much as raised a corner of his mouth. Matti had realized pretty fast that it wasn't common that he laughed or even smiled. To see those azure eyes glint and the mouth's corners moving upwards on the otherwise impassive lips were as getting a fist in his stomach. His heart throbbed hysterically and he felt wholly hot. However short it had been worth the wait. He had as mentioned already been a bit enamored in that guy on Majvor's photos but they were nothing compared to the real thing. Now he definitely was crushing hard. Smile or not, Johnas was gorgeous!! Ever since that surprising encounter on the path, when he had looked up from the bush and got to see who he'd been close to run over, he'd been having big problems keeping his eyes off Johnas. The only thing that stopped him from gawking away was the fact that Johnas guaranteed would react to it. He would surely think that Matti stared of other reasons and probably take offense. Although he would probably take offense if he knew the real reason too but either way Matti wasn't willing to jeopardize it. He already looked upon Johnas as a beautiful, exotic and skittish animal. One single error and the guy would flee to never again be seen. He had to behave. Which was easier said than done. For the first time on a really long time he was alright nervous and when he was tense he gibbered worse than ever. Nervous over making that error. Nervous of somehow revealing himself. Nervous about that if he stopped talking bunkums he would once again start to think about how Johnas would look without those jeans and the dark t-shirt. About what he would want to do with him...

He bit his lower lip. He couldn't last any longer and ogled at Johna's tall, lithe form. Usually he hadn't much to spare for smokers but in this case he was more than willing to make an exception. Or willing... He hadn't much of a choice. His surging feelings already seemed to have decided that he hadn't any options. He'd never believed in love at first sight but that had definitely changed when he got a sight of Johnas in real life...

"Mum should be here soon", he managed to say and reluctantly tore his eyes from Johnas' tempting figure. "With a car it's pretty fast to get here."

Johnas nodded. Matti's eyes inevitably were pulled back to him, like a lodestone, and he saw how Johnas' lips closed around the brown cigarette filter and sucked... Oh dear god... He would of panted loudly if he'd been out of earshot. Unfortunately he could all to well imagine those lips closing around something with considerably larger size and suck on that. He could feel some treacherous jerks from his crotch and dug in his nails in the palms while swearing loudly inside. The last thing he needed now was a grand erection. It would be hard to explain away, even with his talents... And it would definitely be an error of the kind that would send Johnas running...

"Most paths around here leads to a road like this and most of the roads run together somewhere", he helplessly jabbered on while trying to think more of the pain from his nails in his palms than about his smoldering arousal. "It's a pretty big system but once you've learnt it you won't get lost again."

Once again a short nod as answer. Matti both wished for and dreaded Anette showing up. He wanted to spend considerably more time with Johnas but he wasn't sure how long he'd be able to keep his all too virile body in check.

"I guess you're starting school on Monday too?" he asked without expecting an answer.

In the corner of his eyes he saw Johnas drop his finished cigarette butt on the ground and carefully rub it into the dirt on the road with his shoe.

"Mm", it lowly came at the same time.

He was staring down at the butt-end. Matti wondered if it were to escape having to look up or just checking that the butt were properly put out. He couldn't help but looking down at it himself. It sure looked stifled

"What school?" he curiously asked.

There were at least three senior high schools within an hours travel. And that was provided that Johnas weren't attending any school with a specialization.

He heard Johnas pull in a breath, probably to answer, but whatever it was it defaulted when Anette's black minivan came rumbling around a bend further away. Matti frowned.

"Well... Guess there's no doubt about from whom I inherited my inclination for high speeds and reckless driving", he muttered loudly.

Once again he heard the sound of a quickly smothered chuckle. It was clearer this time since it didn't get interrupted by coughs. Inside he exulted. Outwards he pretended he hadn't heard anything. Although Johnas looked deadpan except a small wrinkle between his eyebrows that wrinkle told Matti quite a lot. He was a good judge of character... Johnas clearly wasn't used to showing any emotions and probably felt both bothered and confused about reacting the way he did now. It was better not to take notice of it until Johnas felt comfy enough to laugh openly and free in his presence.

When the car slowed down and came to a stop beside them Matti gave his mother a lethargic look through the opened side window.

"If you're not careful your car's gonna end up like my bike", he pointed out.

Anette gave him a sweet smile as answer over the car seat where Kimi sat and dozed.

"You might have inherited your sense for speed from me but that proneness for accidents you got from your father."

"Hah!" Matti replied.

He quickly introduced Anette and Kimi to Johnas and vice versa before fetching his bike where he'd dropped it earlier. Johnas remained waiting outside the car and when Matti passed him on his way towards the trunk to throw his bike in he stopped of to warn him.

"I got my chops from here too, just so you're prepared."

He must have done something right 'cause at that moment Johnas looked straight at him and pulled up a corner of his mouth in half a smile so charming that Matti's knees almost folded in place. If he already hadn't been hopelessly lost he definitely would have lost himself there and then.

~~~~~~~~~~O~~~~~~~~~~

Matti had told the truth about getting his sense of speed and his mouth from his mother. After a little more than a five minutes long drive, that to Johnas immense amazement and relief placed them unharmed on the drive-way outside Matti's house, he was completely soaked with cold sweat. He had clung to the car door so hard during the drive that he wondered if he ever would be able to straighten his fingers again. Not even Anette's bombardment of talking had been able to distract him from the insane trip. He hadn't been able to get even one syllable out ever since the car started moving. Anette obviously hadn't noticed. The questions she'd been asking she'd practically answered herself, most often with new questions. Johnas knew she'd said both one and two funny things, the humor also seemed to run in the family, but he had barely been able to breath so laughing was out of the question.

The truth was that he was a tad afraid of cars. He had good reasons for it too but it was something he preferred not to think about. Fact was that he during about a whole year had refused to even get into a car.

Anette had as mentioned been too busy talking and driving to notice anything but Matti, that had been seated beside him and had better overhaul so to say, of course hadn't been able to avoid seeing Johnas' pure white face and hard grip around the handle on the car door. Now he leaned towards Johnas over the wide back seat and even though Anette happily continued her talking while pulling the handbrake and turning of the car he could clearly hear Matti's whispered question.

"You ok?"

Johnas hated when people asked that question. He had totally lost count on how many times he'd lashed out against people asking this, mainly his mother, the last two years. It was such a brainless question when the answer was so obvious. Of that reason he got pretty surprised when the usual anger stayed away even though it was the second time Matti's asked this since they meet. Strangely enough the question instead got his nerves to slowly start to calm down and he managed to release his grip on the handle. He even managed to nod a little. He could practically feel Matti smolder with more questions but he held back with them. Instead he just smiled his charismatic smile.

"Take the chance to skip while she's taking Kimi out", he said lowly.

Johnas nodded.

"Uhm... thanks..."

They left the car and Johnas just barely managed to not fall to the ground and kiss it. When Anette leaned in on the passenger side, still talking, Matti gave him a short nod and yet another smile. Johnas quickly limped over to Majvor's little garden. The rusty old car was still gone so he guessed the ladies were still out shopping. It felt as if he'd been gone for days but a look at the clock in the kitchen enlightened him that it barely been two hours. He provided himself with a stock of the complete sandwiches Majvor always kept a layer of in the fridge, and a soda, before limping up to the attic. It was blissfully calm and silent up there. He hadn't had any major issues with Matti's talking and not even Anette had really got on his nerves, which was surprising, but either way it was nice to rest the ears a bit.

He laid down on the bed and slowly ate the sandwiches and washed them down with the soda. His thoughts inevitably wandered over to Matti and his mother. Even though they clearly had money neither of them seemed particularly inclined to flaunt it. Johnas small experience of people with money was that they also had a haughty attitude. Like they were superior other people just 'cause their account statements contained a couple of extra zeros... He didn't give much about that kind of people which also was the reason he had so little experience of them. But what he'd experienced of his neighbors so far was totally ok. He couldn't help but seeing Matti's wide smile in front of himself and almost thought himself still be able to hear that happy voice of his. You could say what you want about him but he was more charismatic than anyone Johnas ever met. He'd even managed to get Johnas to laugh a couple of times. A smaller miracle considering the fact that he hadn't even smiled in about two years... He was pretty sure he'd be seeing more of Matti and surprised himself with wondering when. He frowned. He wanted to see Matti again? The answer was surprisingly obvious. He wanted. He couldn't remember when he last felt this curious about someone. But he couldn't get away from the facts. Matti had made him feel good... For the first in a really, really long time. He hadn't even thought that he wanted to feel good. But evidently he wanted and he felt ashamed 'cause of it. A part of him wanted, longed after, feeling good again, but another part flatly put on the brakes. Two years was a long time in some people's eyes but was it long enough..? He frowned and twisted in the bed. His thoughts unstinting lead him down in the darkness again... The cogitation of how he'd felt during the drive home unwanted came to him and with that he of course remembered another drive that hadn't ended as happily... His memories swept away every feeling of peace and calm that the meeting with Matti had given him. He bore down his face in the pillow while shivers propagated throughout his body. At the same time that he wanted to keep his memories, all he wanted was to forget...

~~~~~~~~~~O~~~~~~~~~~

After unloading his bike and loudly interrupting Anette with needing a shower Matti ran up to his. Anette looked around a little confused, probably searching for Johnas, while he ascended the stairs but she didn't say anything else than that the dinner would be ready in an hour. He guessed she was pretty used to him sending away his friends in the middle of her talking by now. If you didn't do that they would probably have to move the way she talked.

Matti closed the door behind him and leaned towards it with a lengthy groan of pure relief. Finally alone! His body ached of the effort of holding back. He could finally relax and could practically feel how his blood poured down towards his crotch. He'd been as good as semi-hard since Johnas smiled that smile towards him. Now his cock quickly stiffened to a glorious hard-on. He pulled his hand over the hefty bump in his pants and felt his pulse rise. He had felt pretty awful for not losing his yen when he saw how badly affected Johnas got by the drive. However it wasn't Johnas reaction to that that he was thinking about now. Mostly it was that smile... Just the thought of it made him tremble with arousal. The guy was so hot it should be illegal and the best thing was that he seemed totally unaware of it himself. Matti moaned lowly and his cock twitched beneath his hand. The last time he'd had a crush had been at the start of high school. A crush that lasted about a week until he realized what the guy in question really was made of. Sure, he'd been turned on by guys since then but that was also all that it had been. And he couldn't remember ever getting turned on this quick and on all cylinders. Of course, he still couldn't be sure about if this was more than bodily but a feeling in the pit of his stomach made him pretty sure it was.

He pulled off his clothes while taking the few steps to the bathroom and the shower. After turning on the water he couldn't help but throwing a quick glance towards the mirror. The hard-on was impressive and he delighted as much at the sight as at the feeling when he followed the soft skin on the cock with his fingertips. One of the benefits with being gay... It was easy to imagine that it was someone else you saw, someone else you touched... And that someone else in his thoughts was definitely Johnas. He wondered how Johnas would look like this. Nude with his cock in the air. He closed his eyes and evoked the image of Johnas inside his head. Tried to peel off those jeans and the t-shirt. Johnas was tall and thin... Pale but not in a sickly way... Matti swallowed hard. His body was tingling and the throbbing in his crotch was almost painful. Quickly he stepped in under the hot shower jets and then slid his hands over his well-trained body. The thought of Johnas slender, coolish hands, fondling him the same way, made him tremble. His nipples stiffened and he let his fingertips slide over them before pinching one slightly. He couldn't keep in a little sound... He let the other hand glide down to his crotch and teasingly caressed himself around the hard cock. If life's been perfect Johnas had been gay and there with him now. But he hadn't given off any vibes towards that at all. Matti realized the whole thing most certainly would be a frustrating, unrequited affair and he knew he shouldn't feed his fantasies like this but he was way too turned on now to refrain. After this he would do his best to not exacerbate his final disappointment but here and now... He closed his hand around the cocks root and squeezed it hard... The other hand he slid from his chest, over his hip and rear... It wasn't usual he did this in the shower and so unplanned but with Johnas in his thoughts he felt a sudden, almost compelling, need to feel something inside. He moaned and moved to a more straddled position while rhythmically squeezing the hard-on with one hand and sliding the other own down between the buttocks. The thought of Johnas behind him, the feel of his cock against him, was so exciting that he could feel the precum practically flow from the cock. He quavered with desire and pushed a finger against the hole. He exhaled a moan when the finger slipped in and the cock twitched even before he found his prostate and started working on it. He gasped heavily and clasped the dick hard. So good... He leaned his head backwards and rhythmically moved the hips towards the hand at the back. Moaning he squeezed in another finger and moved the hand faster. He could feel the scrotum contract at the oncoming discharge and held his breath. The orgasm welled over him with such intensity that he almost screamed out loud. Unrestrained he moved his hips and both hands, thrusted and caressed, while the legs wavered beneath him and threatening to give away. The violent convulsions pressed out his fingers and panting he leaned against the glazed tiles in the shower. Dear lord... This was decidedly the best orgasm he had in ages...

Even though he already determined not to think about Johnas in that way anymore he lingered, unwilling to release his fantasies quite yet... He once again wondered how it would have been to really be caressed by the guy in the neighboring house... How it would feel to have his cock thrusting into him... A protracted shiver went through him. He could totally honest say that he'd never wanted to be fucked as much as he wanted it right now... He used to look at himself as reversible when it came to his role in a possible relationship but when he thought about Johnas it was undeniably thoughts about being taken... He wanted Johnas to take him... Take him and fuck him to ecstasy. His breathing was heavy and the cock was hard again... He only hesitated for a short while before making up his mind. Since the body had caught on it wouldn't harm to do it once more. This close he could as well consider it as one time with two orgasms he reasoned. Then he would abandon his fantasies and exert himself to try and look at Johnas as the next best thing. A potentially prospective good friend. Matti knew all too well that hoping for anything else was too much. Anything like that would definitely be too good to be true...